and so the day passed by

my little cat died
1 down..3 more looking ways to survive
i have been a good 'cat'sitter up until i step into the working world
ive done it all...clean carpet because of cat puke, clean up their 'leftover' in difficult corner, face my parents loud voice because the cats didnt behave, stealing fish, pick up all the dead animals that they left in the middle of the house, feed them with medicine when they are sick, be with them when theyre dying..bury them when they died..name it..ive done it all..
but this time around .. there were never enough time
i woke up at 545..start my car engine at 6.10..take a peek at my cats and there I go..
I finish at 530..doing my staff until after maghrib prayers..got back..take a peek at my cats..and went inside..
I never meant to give such difficult time to them..to feed the cats..to provide their needs..
But thats what happening..when Im at home..i get too tired to do anything..or too lazy if you would want to put it that way..
I guess my time is up..
i never give names to those kitten this time around..I also dont know why..But i heart them...really....
I feel guilty..
I wish..and i hope..but i cant..